I’ll start this with a simple statement, I don’t like and I don’t trust mental health services, and that is based on personal experience.

That being said I know my mental health situation is reaching a point that I need some outside help. I’m not talking about feeling a little “low” or a bit of “anxiety” or anything low level like that.

I’m talking about life long problems that put me in a psychiatric unit for a year on a section 3. I’m talking about battling voices that tell me to kill myself every second of every day that I am awake. I’m talking some serious, life threatening (my life, not other people) mental health problems.

So today I have booked an appointment with my GP to talk about a referral to Nottinghamshire Mental Health Services to see what they can offer. The only stipulation I will make is that I need to stay in control of what, if any treatment/support I have. They can talk to me and I will be very honest with them, They can offer me options on how to deal with things. But at the end of they day I need to reserve the right to decide what, if any options I take up.

And if I chose to not take up an option then they must not try and force any treatment on me otherwise I’ll walk away and disappear and they will never see me again.