I don’t always deal with change well

I don’t always cope well with big change, but they say change is inevitable and change is good. Little changes I can cope with, after all that’s just progress. But big changes in the past have sometimes been major triggers to some of the more drastic collapses in my life.

I think it’s the level of uncertainty at the outcome of whatever is changing that upsets me and fills me with fear and dread. Then it starts my brain itching and then I start over thinking things and looking for all the worst possible outcomes and then finally I implode in a big mess.

Just now, there is change coming in the way of moving from Employment Support Allowance (EAS) and all of it’s financial disability packages that I so rely on, to this new fangled Universal Credit (UC).

Reading the paperwork they have sent me, it should work out that I’ll receive the same value of support but in “different” ways, and trying to work out what those differences are is starting me off struggling with this.

Today, at 10:30am I have a phone meeting with someone from the DWP to discuss why I can not validate my ID on line which is part of the online application for UC process (I know why this is, and it’s complicated!!!). It should be a quick and simple meeting but it’s all new to me and I don’t know what the rules are.